My phone call to Eric was the wake of my first desperateness'. I felt like I was out of options. If I wanted to make things "right" and...

The next morning, my internal shame felt unbearable. I wanted to wake, and it all not be real. The heaviest of my own poor choices with...

As I backed out, I did not get very far and was immediately stopped. I was freaking out on the inside but from all the medications was...

I played the victim with my family because in my reality I was the victim. I truly thought, for a very brief three weeks, that Eric was...

There was a gradual shift making its way throughout my life. The shift was deadly. I tried many things to hold on to what normalcy I had....

With all the changes after I moved to Atlanta and after I had three kids within a year...I appeared to be super mom to the outsiders...

I functioned normal for a while heavy drinking while dabbing into whatever pills Eric or I could get our hands on. Back then, I did not...

Baby blues rolled off the tongue smoother for me than the words: postpartum depression. The first time I heard the words I pushed back...

On January 24, 2014, I calmly awaited to be taken to the operating room alongside Eric. The morning began like every other day while I...

I had it wrong all of this time The good I saw in you was only my light reflected It is said what you seek is seeking you I was seeking...

If you have not seen Britney Spears dance around her living room, barely dressed, with secret subdued messages that I calculate only make...

I truly felt from the very beginning of my pregnancy with the boys they were special. There is something truly remarkable about twins and...

A few weeks after my surgery, I had the luxury of bringing Bentley to work with me. At the time I worked for my Daddy's company All Phase...

After Eric and I wed at the courthouse nothing changed except my last name. I was counting down the days until my appointed day to be...

I enjoyed my pregnancy. I ate everything that wasn't bolted down to the kitchen table! My favorite was the cream cheese icing cupcakes at...

I was in shell shock. I never in a million years thought I would become pregnant before marriage. "That was not supposed to happen to...

After months of dating, I began to envision my future with Eric. I thought after I graduated from college, "I may move to Atlanta." Eric...

After the beach, all I could think about was the charming guy I met from Atlanta...Eric. The anticipation to see him again was grand....

I have written a lot about the past dysfunction in my and Eric's marriage. And before I write about my most disturbing memories which I...

Eric and I were on a road trip back to Gwinnett County. Gwinnett County left a bad taste in my mouth. The city of Buford reminded me of...